Kitty

My cat, Maki,  is in the hospital tonight with congestive heart failure.  He has advanced heart disease and we are going to take it “day by day,” according to the cardiologist.

All I can think about is how neglected he has been since the kids were born, not that he was actually neglected and we could have stopped this from happening, but just less loved from when he was my only little guy.  Once I became a mom I always just felt like I was giving affection all the time, and at the end of the day I typically just didn’t have more to give.  I told myself I would be better about it later, when the kids were older, tomorrow, when I wasn’t so tired, etc.  Now I wish he was pawing at me as I try to type this.

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14 Responses

  1. Oh, I’m so sorry.

    Steph

  2. we went through this a year ago with our beloved kitty who had cancer. We had to put her down and my husband wept openly. so hard. thinking of you.

  3. Oh, Beth. I’m so sorry.

    My dog has mitral valve disease, which will lead to congestive heart failure and all that goes with it.

    He’s healthy now (relatively speaking), and we’re trying to enjoy every minute we have.

    I hope you’re able to bring Maki home and spend a few more days (or weeks or months) with him.

    Truthfully, I’ve never been through this (guinea pigs and fish just aren’t the same, even as sad as a person can be when they die). But I firmly believe that you’ll know when it’s “time.” For us, it will be when he stops wagging that tail of his a mile a minute.

    Again, I’m so sorry.

  4. I’m really sorry about Maki. Hopefully, they will be able to remove some fluid with medication and you will have some more time with him. I knew he always had a heart condition but had not expected it to get so serious this soon. Remember he has had a much longer life just because you have him. You and Hubby have given him a lot of extra years. Love ya.

  5. Dang. Sorry to hear about your little guy, this must be a rough time for you.

  6. I’m so sorry, Beth. That’s terrible. I know exactly what you mean about not having enough love to give to a pet after having kids. I feel guilty about it all the time.

    But you obviously do still love Maki even though you haven’t been able to express it as much as you used to. You’re caring for him through this time and worrying about him and that is love.

    I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. The possiblity of losing someone (person or animal) close to you is a horrible thing to experience. There is nothing positive or “okay” about it.

    So, I’m sorry you are in one of those times. I really am. I hope Maki is given a miracle like he was given when you chose to bring him into your life.

  7. Beth,

    I’m so sorry, it’s so hard when a pet is sick. You provided a great home for your kitty and that is the great thing about cats is they are quite independent.

    Good Luck to Maki

    Jenn

  8. Our pets definitely took a backseat when the kids came along, as I think it just does. We don’t love them less, we just had to get our priorities straight. Just remember what a great life your cat has had thus far. So many pets are abandoned, abused, neglecetd (truly) and you have given your cat a wonderful home complete with all the comforts some people don’t even get. Hope you feel better.

  9. I’m so sorry, hon…

  10. Beth, I am so sorry. Having just lost our cat Casey recently I know how horrible this is. And I am familiar with the guilt you are feeling. All I would have to say about that is that pets are very perceptive. They know we love them, even if we don’t always have the time to show them. Maki knows.

  11. I’m sorry about your kitty.

  12. So sorry, Beth! This is so hard. Having just become pet free ourselves, I feel for you, oh, I feel for you!

  13. That must have been very difficult to write — thank you for sharing. I hope that you can enjoy a few last cuddles with the kitty.

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